It’s been a while now since I vend out here (exactly that is what I feel when I write here)….since mechanism way of metro living has kept me away. Believe me I have been missing this so badly and wanted to be here and put my thoughts… ambiguities, cynicism and confessions in this web space before all get vanished thus I can refer this in future for my own learning’s and lessons.
Every year this week post X-Mas I get into this introspective mood and know I am certainly not alone with this syndrome and have many of you who are going to be instigated with this reoccurring enigma in coming few days for sure. I really couldn’t figure out over the years what does prompt me to do so but this happens religiously for last 10-12 years. In this process if I have to illustrate entire year in one word (which is ridiculous to do so) but for me one defining word which comes to my mind and i.e. “Lessons”. Yes indeed the year gone by has brought lot of learning to mankind and has taught us lot of things in its own nasty way. It has made the world more humble, has taught art of giving to the world and last but not the least, taught us how to be grounded and omit the word “proud” from our thinking process because the sequence of events unfolded last year has again reminded us that “nothing is permanent” .Most of us had forgot or perhaps not giving this “phrase” a due thought which it should actually get.
We all have thought about the year gone by in our own way and have our lessons to learn and grow. Hence today I force my memory to go back couple of years behind in order to contemplate how does things around me or within me has changed or otherwise? I have completed half a dozen years in Galib’s city and one defining image which comes to my mind time n again and I am repentantly putting here that is “STANDSTILL TRAFFIC” [no wonder our local sport minister doesn’t recognize “Formula One” as Sports :) ]. 6 years back I have started my journey as a little immature boy and I believe I have taken it to slight sensible and responsible Man stage :). I know many of you still has strong apprehension to the use of word “sensible” and to be honest I would not argue much with you on this regard, since I myself still has question marks there deep down :) and seriously trying to improve here.
When I go to down memory lane and without getting to much lyrical and to put it on serious note I think when I reached old Delhi station 6 years back I was like a plain slate which was ready to get written upon. And this Grand old city of India has written an interesting short story on that. The story gave me my share of laughs, sorrows, guiltiness…happiness…and perhaps all other emotions and moments to cherish except “Regrets”. Today when I look behind there is only one thing which I wish I could have done differently and that is certainly I should have less ignorant and more responsive to my loved ones and well wishers. And I take this opportunity to convey my heartfelt apologies and sorry to all of you, who’s …”Calls I have not responded back”, “Mails I didn’t replied to”, “SMSes I couldn’t respond to”. I am so sorry, not to you, but to myself that how fool and idiotic I was to do that. Some of you have already stopped writing to me and would have formed your own perception about me…you have every right to do that and I don’t have any inclination to question your perception but just want to tell you, I am still the same person you met first with lots of flaws and limitations and need your help to come out of these shortcomings. Hence solicit your forgiveness and need you around me…please be in touch. I pledge and promise I would seriously work on this and not let myself down going forward because I have always believed when I am honest to myself I’ll be honest with you and all. I have been indebted by generosity of so many people as friends, collogues, mentors and guides and don’t have appropriate word in my vocabulary to convey me regards to them. They all have been great support including each one of you, some of you are still around and I wish you will be there forever to bestow me with your blessings, to guide me with your wisdom and to nurture me to become a good human being.
Just remember your friend and colleague…is still little numbed and so pompously engrossed into in his small town ethos :) :) ….which can be a crux of the issue…PLEASE HELP HIM.
Every year this week post X-Mas I get into this introspective mood and know I am certainly not alone with this syndrome and have many of you who are going to be instigated with this reoccurring enigma in coming few days for sure. I really couldn’t figure out over the years what does prompt me to do so but this happens religiously for last 10-12 years. In this process if I have to illustrate entire year in one word (which is ridiculous to do so) but for me one defining word which comes to my mind and i.e. “Lessons”. Yes indeed the year gone by has brought lot of learning to mankind and has taught us lot of things in its own nasty way. It has made the world more humble, has taught art of giving to the world and last but not the least, taught us how to be grounded and omit the word “proud” from our thinking process because the sequence of events unfolded last year has again reminded us that “nothing is permanent” .Most of us had forgot or perhaps not giving this “phrase” a due thought which it should actually get.
We all have thought about the year gone by in our own way and have our lessons to learn and grow. Hence today I force my memory to go back couple of years behind in order to contemplate how does things around me or within me has changed or otherwise? I have completed half a dozen years in Galib’s city and one defining image which comes to my mind time n again and I am repentantly putting here that is “STANDSTILL TRAFFIC” [no wonder our local sport minister doesn’t recognize “Formula One” as Sports :) ]. 6 years back I have started my journey as a little immature boy and I believe I have taken it to slight sensible and responsible Man stage :). I know many of you still has strong apprehension to the use of word “sensible” and to be honest I would not argue much with you on this regard, since I myself still has question marks there deep down :) and seriously trying to improve here.
When I go to down memory lane and without getting to much lyrical and to put it on serious note I think when I reached old Delhi station 6 years back I was like a plain slate which was ready to get written upon. And this Grand old city of India has written an interesting short story on that. The story gave me my share of laughs, sorrows, guiltiness…happiness…and perhaps all other emotions and moments to cherish except “Regrets”. Today when I look behind there is only one thing which I wish I could have done differently and that is certainly I should have less ignorant and more responsive to my loved ones and well wishers. And I take this opportunity to convey my heartfelt apologies and sorry to all of you, who’s …”Calls I have not responded back”, “Mails I didn’t replied to”, “SMSes I couldn’t respond to”. I am so sorry, not to you, but to myself that how fool and idiotic I was to do that. Some of you have already stopped writing to me and would have formed your own perception about me…you have every right to do that and I don’t have any inclination to question your perception but just want to tell you, I am still the same person you met first with lots of flaws and limitations and need your help to come out of these shortcomings. Hence solicit your forgiveness and need you around me…please be in touch. I pledge and promise I would seriously work on this and not let myself down going forward because I have always believed when I am honest to myself I’ll be honest with you and all. I have been indebted by generosity of so many people as friends, collogues, mentors and guides and don’t have appropriate word in my vocabulary to convey me regards to them. They all have been great support including each one of you, some of you are still around and I wish you will be there forever to bestow me with your blessings, to guide me with your wisdom and to nurture me to become a good human being.
Just remember your friend and colleague…is still little numbed and so pompously engrossed into in his small town ethos :) :) ….which can be a crux of the issue…PLEASE HELP HIM.
